So, these past few days have been a little tough for me if you've been following my blog. Yesterday, on my down time at work I was just browsing through blogs on heartbreak, and you know...mushy stuff like that. I came across a blog by a girl that writes letters to her future husband and plans on giving them to him on their wedding day. She hasn't ever met this guy, and isn't in a current relationship. I thought this was such a good idea, but I also know that guys aren't really into the whole "I'm gonna write you a letter every single day, and you have to sit down and read every single one of them" kind of thing. So I decided to alter this project a little bit, and type one letter to my future husband before I meet him. One when I know he's the one, one on my engagement day, and one on my wedding day and give him all 4 letters on my wedding day. Cute right?! So here is letter #1 ya'll. Hope you guys enjoy...let me know what you think and let me know if any of ya'l have done this.
Hello there my future husband (well this is kind of awkward),
So this is my first letter to you. I really have dreamed my whole life of the “perfect little love story”, although I’ve constantly been reminded that fairytales in real life don’t exist. I completely believe that, but I also believe that when you find the right person, sparks really do fly. At 25 years old though, I’m starting to wonder where the heck you are.
Right now, I have absolutely no idea if I’ve ever met you, if you’re someone I talk to on a daily basis, or if you’re some stranger I’m just going to randomly come across one day. We haven’t even begun our love story yet…well I don’t think we have. UNLESS, I revisited the cemetery and you’re that ex-boyfriend that I really ended up “not being able to live without” haha. I do want you to know that, whoever you are, I think about you often. I see all of these happy couples around me, all of my happily married friends and family members, and really look forward to us being like that one day.
I wonder what we will fight about, what our home will be like, and what our kids will look like. I wonder about our wedding day often. I don’t do very well with large crowds, so fingers crossed we run off and do this somewhere not so public. I wonder if we’ll fight to save our marriage if things get rocky, and I wonder if you can put up with my temper tantrums that come in week long spurts. I wonder if you’ll roll your eyes at me when I get dramatic, which I tend to do often, or if you’ll just laugh at me and understand that’s just how I am. I wonder if you will sit on the couch with me on Mondays nights to watch the Bachelor, or if you’ll be the one person that can stray me away from that addiction. I wonder what my friends will think about you, and I wonder if they’ll see me light up when I talk about you. I wonder if you’ll get along with my dad…because my track record isn’t looking too good…and I wonder if you’ll get to meet my grandma, because she’s taught me so many life lessons that I will bring into our marriage. I can’t wait to tell you the cute love stories of my grandparents, and I promise you that my mom will love you like you’re her own son.
I’m nowhere near the woman God has called me to be. I have major sins and major faults, as everyone does. So I wonder if God is waiting for me to make those changes before handing you over to me, or if he’s going to hand you to me to HELP me make these changes. I want you to know that we are going to be given so many challenges throughout our marriage…everything isn’t going to always be butterflies and flowers, and I pray that we will be able to get through them hard times and come out stronger than we were before.
Obviously, I think about us a lot. But I can’t wait to start our life together.
Starting tonight, I’m going to start praying for you. I really do want you to make good decisions and I want the best for you. I’m going to start the most important part of this early, and center our relationship around God.