I'm a weekend hermit.

It's FRIDAY finally finally finally. And Friday the 13th at that.

Ha...can't wait to see what kind of chaos life decides to throw my way this evening.

I know that sounded kind of Negative Nancy, but ya'll...my week has been laughable at this point. But not laughable in a fun, happy way. It's like one thing after another and I hate to ask, "what's next?" You know...I think everyone has weeks like that, so I'm not going to let it get me down. Just say a prayer for me that something positive comes my way soon :) To give you a brief summary...my iPhone screen broke and it's over $200 to fix it (for the 3rd time), my ex-boyfriend has happily moved on while i'm still over here grieving, my weightloss plateau is about to drive me to insanity & my laundry pile is like...Mount Everest. I know this sounds so dramatic, and there are people in the world that have it way worse than me...but like I said, it's just been one of those weeks.

So yeah, on to better things. Like my diet. Everything's going wonderful as of this morning weight wise. I'm FINALLY down to the weight I've been aiming for all week to get back to, so hopefully it's all downhill from there this weekend (unless I have another crazy binge I'm going to have to fight another week to work off) BUT....THAT WON'T HAPPEN. Trust me. I just hope to move out of this plateau now that I'm where I wanna be. Binging is for the birds.

What do ya'll do to stay away from the tempting food on the weekends? Sometimes I almost wished I worked 7 days a week...because seriously. I have no issues staying on track during the weekdays.

So my weekend plans are pretty bare at the moment. Don't really know what I'm going to do..but sometimes those are the best weekends to have, right? I have a severe social problem. I hate going out in public sometimes because I feel SO FAT...so I will stay at home...and literally do nothing. Well except catch up on Keeping up with the Kardashians, Honey Boo Boo, Duck Dynasty, Teen Mom 3, and the Rivals 2. Hahahaha. That's my life ya'll, that's my life. Let me know what ya'll are up to.

And here is some advice I found very encouraging on another blog today:

To walk far, carry less.

Maybe part of growing up is learning that it’s okay to set something down, just because it’s heavy.

You may really love that thing. You’re likely attached to it for reasons even you don’t understand. You may have held it tightly against your chest for so long that it feels like part of you… But you simply cannot carry the weight of it anymore.

So you let it go.

You let it go, and it makes you free.

Letter to my Future Husband

So, these past few days have been a little tough for me if you've been following my blog. Yesterday, on my down time at work I was just browsing through blogs on heartbreak, and you know...mushy stuff like that. I came across a blog by a girl that writes letters to her future husband and plans on giving them to him on their wedding day. She hasn't ever met this guy, and isn't in a current relationship. I thought this was such a good idea, but I also know that guys aren't really into the whole "I'm gonna write you a letter every single day, and you have to sit down and read every single one of them" kind of thing. So I decided to alter this project a little bit, and type one letter to my future husband before I meet him. One when I know he's the one, one on my engagement day, and one on my wedding day and give him all 4 letters on my wedding day. Cute right?! So here is letter #1 ya'll. Hope you guys enjoy...let me know what you think and let me know if any of ya'l have done this.


Hello there my future husband (well this is kind of awkward),

So this is my first letter to you. I really have dreamed my whole life of the “perfect little love story”, although I’ve constantly been reminded that fairytales in real life don’t exist. I completely believe that, but I also believe that when you find the right person, sparks really do fly. At 25 years old though, I’m starting to wonder where the heck you are.

Right now, I have absolutely no idea if I’ve ever met you, if you’re someone I talk to on a daily basis, or if you’re some stranger I’m just going to randomly come across one day. We haven’t even begun our love story yet…well I don’t think we have. UNLESS, I revisited the cemetery and you’re that ex-boyfriend that I really ended up “not being able to live without” haha. I do want you to know that, whoever you are, I think about you often. I see all of these happy couples around me, all of my happily married friends and family members, and really look forward to us being like that one day.

I wonder what we will fight about, what our home will be like, and what our kids will look like. I wonder about our wedding day often. I don’t do very well with large crowds, so fingers crossed we run off and do this somewhere not so public. I wonder if we’ll fight to save our marriage if things get rocky, and I wonder if you can put up with my temper tantrums that come in week long spurts. I wonder if you’ll roll your eyes at me when I get dramatic, which I tend to do often, or if you’ll just laugh at me and understand that’s just how I am. I wonder if you will sit on the couch with me on Mondays nights to watch the Bachelor, or if you’ll be the one person that can stray me away from that addiction. I wonder what my friends will think about you, and I wonder if they’ll see me light up when I talk about you. I wonder if you’ll get along with my dad…because my track record isn’t looking too good…and I wonder if you’ll get to meet my grandma, because she’s taught me so many life lessons that I will bring into our marriage. I can’t wait to tell you the cute love stories of my grandparents, and I promise you that my mom will love you like you’re her own son.

I’m nowhere near the woman God has called me to be. I have major sins and major faults, as everyone does. So I wonder if God is waiting for me to make those changes before handing you over to me, or if he’s going to hand you to me to HELP me make these changes. I want you to know that we are going to be given so many challenges throughout our marriage…everything isn’t going to always be butterflies and flowers, and I pray that we will be able to get through them hard times and come out stronger than we were before.

Obviously, I think about us a lot. But I can’t wait to start our life together.
Starting tonight, I’m going to start praying for you. I really do want you to make good decisions and I want the best for you. I’m going to start the most important part of this early, and center our relationship around God.


Yours truly,
Kari

Food, boys, work & cleaning.

Good morning, or afternoon, or evening...whichever you prefer. I've been coming back to my blog trying to update since 8:30 this morning. It's now 11:45 and you see how far I've gotten. Shows you how busy it's been at work this morning. I guess I spoke too soon when I acted like my job was a piece of cake :) On the brighter side of things, I won't complain because at least my day is somewhat flying by.

So I'm finally down a few pounds from my horrible binge this weekend. 2 more pounds to go before I'm back the lowest point I was about a week ago. Gah, now that I just read that sentence it sounds awfully confusing. Let me word this out more appropriately: I'm not near the lowest point I've ever been in my life weight wise, but I'm almost to the lowest point I've been in the past 4'ish years or so. Ok. That sounded better.

I feel like during the week, I stick with my diet SO well, but on the weekends, I completely mess up all the hard work I did during the week. I've GOT to work on that.

And ya'll. I am so lazy when it comes to cleaning & doing laundry during the week. LIKE I HATE IT. I find so many excuses to wait until Sundays to catch up on housework. It's so ridiculous. BUTTTTTTTTTT, yesterday...I got home from work and cleaned my place from top to bottom, washed dishes, did laundry, organized all of my jewelry. I was so proud of myself. Eeeek! So here's a little peak...once again. My iPhone lighting sucks. Sorry. 

But anyway...I had a random emotional day yesterday. I really hate those. Sometimes it feels like everything is going so wonderful, then out of nowhere..here come your feelings just slapping you in the face. I got a little down about a stupid boy. That I shouldn't even give the time of day. I have a bad habit of "visiting the graveyard" as my grandmaw would call it. DUMB DUMB DUMB. Instead of putting myself out there to meet new guys, I always revisit the past...which is by far the stupidiest thing to do if any of ya'll were wondering. If the past calls, don't answer...it has nothing new to say. So I thought I would post a little quote on here that might lift some of ya'll up, it sure helped me look at things differently yesterday.

And now for a little diet motivation for those that eat out of boredom:

Have a good day ya'll, feel free to write me :)

A day in the life of a single, childless, 25 year old full-time worker.

So I decided to dedicate today's post to show you guys what my daily routine is like. I mean, maybe, ya'll will see just how much time I do have...and throw all kinds of tips my way since the last thing I have is the excuse of..."I don't have time". Although, I have used that excuse way more than I would like to admit.

Keep in mind this is my Monday-Friday routine.

5:00 A.M- First alarm goes off. Turn off my alarm, reset it for 6 AM.

6:00 A.M- Second alarm goes off. Turn off my alarm, reset it for 6:30 AM.

6:30 A.M- Press snooze every 5 minutes until 6:55 AM.

6:55 A.M- Get in the bathtub, thumb through my Instagram, Facebook, Twitter, and emails.

7:15 A.M- Dry my hair, throw it together, find some scrubs in a HURRY, pop in some earrings.

7:30 A.M- Jet out of the door, realize that it takes me 45 minutes to get to work, and STILL continue to leave at the same time every day.

7:30 A.M- 8:10ish- Do my makeup as I'm driving to work while jamming out my "Newbies" playlist on iTunes, which mainly consists of mushy gushy love songs, and depressing breakup songs and well, songs that aren't really "newbies". Well some are...but some are like REALLY old school. 

8:10-8:15 A.M- Arrive at work...LATE. Pour me some coffee with 3 sugars and 3 creams, and a cup of ice water.

8:15-10:30 A.M- Take my adderall, and WORK. LIKE. CRAZY. Have about 5 anxiety attacks in the process because I'm not getting every single thing done within the 30 minutes I wanted to have everything done by. Feel like this during the anxiety attacks: 

10:30 A.M- Realize that I am only 2 1/2 hours into my day and have nothing else to do.

10:30 A.M- 12:00 P.M- BLOG. Text. Look at blogs. Take selfies. Read the news. Look up recipes. 

12:00 P.M- 1:00 P.M- Lunch break. My co-worker, Tressa and I usually take lunch together every day. We usually go to McDonalds, order a grilled chicken patty dipped in BBQ sauce with a small water (90 calories and 1 gram of fat), then we go tan for 20 minutes at the local tanning salon. 

1:00 P.M- 5:00 P.M- Sit here, blog more, text more, drink ALOT of water, work if the opportunity presents itself. Try to figure out the wifi password that the management won't give us. And just. Be here.

5:00 P.M- Rush out of these doors as fast as I can, clock out, jump in my car. Set the same playlist...again.

5:45 P.M- Pull into town...pass up every single amazing fast food restaurant and town. Fight the urge.

5:50 P.M- Get home, check the mail...go inside. Put on some comfy clothes...

*Now this is where I should be exercising*

6:00 P.M- 9:00 P.M- Catch up on my DVR shows, watch anything that looks interesting on TV, think about washing clothes, decide I'll wait for the weekend, frequent the Humor and Quote section of Pinterest on commercial breaks. Save the funny stuff and send to all of my friends. You know...things like this..

9:00-11:00 P.M- It always depends on how tired I'm feeling as to when I go to bed, but it's usually around this time.

So yeah. Now all of you see how much of a life I DON'T have. I mean, it's really bad. So any suggestions that ya'll have on what kind of activities I should do would be pretty awesome. I know I should add some kind of fitness activity into my routine...problem is, sometimes I feel so fat that I HATE being in front of people. I like to be all alone, by myself, and it's hard to do that in a small town. Therefore, I just hardcore diet all the time. It's like I would much rather just compensate in the food department what I'm lacking in the exercise department. DUMB THINKING RIGHT?! So I need advice ya'll...maybe some tips and tricks to get me out of this funk.

College football is the devil & breakfast muffins are yummy.

Hey ya'll! So it's been a couple of days since I've gotten the chance to update. Thankfully, I'm finally finding a little bit of time during my morning at work. This weekend was absolutely terrible when it came to my diet. I've had more terrible days than good days here lately. Seriously. College football is the DEVIL. Once again, I went to my dad's house for the LSU game and binged on some good grilling. I ate like 5 of the little boneless pork pieces stuffed with cream cheese & jalapenos wrapped in bacon. Best appetizer dish ever for a cookout if ya'll are wondering. That doesn't include the cheesy potatoes, boudin, or BBQ'd grilled chicken I stuffed my face with 5 minutes prior. Geez. Welcome to Louisiana ya'll. We keep our bellies full. It's crazy how ONE binge like this can cause you to gain like...5 pounds. UGH. So I'm back at this hardcore dieting again. I gotta drop around 5 more pounds to get back to my lowest I've been on this diet so far. WAHHHHHHHHH. This sucks. REALLY. Hopefully I learned my lesson not to pull that crap again. The saying is true, "Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels." Because this fat thing I feel right now....is awful, awful, awful, depressing, stupid, regretful. And I mean, I really don't even know what skinny feels like, but I'm pretty sure it feels better than this overflowing stomach thing I'm experiencing right now. Haha. Ok. Anyway...on to other things. Like selfies from the weekend:

Ok I really dont know why this mirror makes me look skinnier than I really am...but FYI, I really ain't that small ya'll. And I'm sorry that the brightness sucks...I'm currently using an iPhone 4 while my iPhone 5 screen is out of service (until I cough up $230 to get it fixed). So yeah..that's my reasoning for the horrible quality pictures.

I've been in this weird music mood lately where I like all these sad, breakup songs...and right now I'm completely obsessed with the group Passenger, and their song, "Let her Go". It's such a cool song...the lead singer's voice is such a different sound, and I don't even know how to explain it. I guess it sounds like, Indie'ish <-- if that's even a word. Ya'll should definitely go download it and listen to it. Great lyrics. And I'm all about strong lyrics. Especially when they're that relateable. Back to food while i'm jumping from subject to subject. I made some really cool breakfast muffins for the week yesterday that are really yummy. They consist of hashbrowns, eggs, cheese, sausage, salt and pepper. You bake them in a muffin pan, and I made 12. 6 for me and 6 for my little sister. Here's the recipe: Kari's Breakfast Muffins (Serving size: 12 muffins) Ingredients: 6 eggs 1 cup of shredded cheese 2 cups of cooked ground sausage 1/2 TBSP of salt 1/2 TBSP of pepper 3 cups of thawed hash browns 3 TBSP of melted butter 1/2 cup of bell peppers (optional) 1.) Preheat oven to 375 degrees. 2.) Mix together hashbrowns, butter, salt and pepper in a mixing bowl. 3.) Spray muffin pan, if needed. 4.) Put the hashbrown, butter, salt and pepper mixture in the bottom and up the sides of each muffin holder (note: this will not look very uniformed...it doesn't matter, it will all mix together evenly in the end) 5.) Bake in the oven for 12-15 minutes. 6.) Take out of oven and evenly distribute sausage into all of the muffin pan cups. 7.) Mix together cheese, eggs, and bell peppers (if you used them) 8.) Pour cheese, eggs & pepper mixture over each muffin pan cup. 9.) Turn oven down to 300 degrees, and bake for an additional 15 minutes. 10.) Let cool for 5 minutes, take a knife to make a space around the edges, and pop them out. I keep mine in the fridge for the week in a tupperware, and every morning I take out one, heat it up and have my breakfast :)

Not even the scale can get me down.

Or so I say at least...

If you've been keeping up with me over the past week, you should know that this whole diet thing has been going...ummm...less than pleasant. Especially after I ate like a cow this weekend.

Yesterday wasn't too much better either. Well it wasn't BAD, but it wasn't wonderful. For breakfast I stopped at the convenient store on my way to work and picked up a Yoo-Hoo (my weakness) and a chicken and cheese crispito. That was my breakfast. Not the smartest choice I've made. For lunch...my coworker and I went to McDonalds and each ate a grilled chicken patty by itself dipped in BBQ sauce. That was probably the smartest decision of the day. And last but not least, my ex-boyfriend and I (yeah...weird) went to his parent's house and had a bowl of gumbo. If you aren't aware of what gumbo is...let me tell you. That is like the best dish from the south. It's sort of like rice and gravy, with chicken and sausage...and whatever else you feel like adding. It's pretty good. But not too smart either. That was all I ate yesterday. So it was a so-so day. I still lost a little, but I'm still not very happy with where I am weight wise. I'm still a pound or two heavier than I was at this point last week, which is kind of disappointing. But I won't give up. I'm just going to push even harder now.

Even though this has been such a short week at work, I can't WAIT for the weekend. What are ya'll all up to?! Let me know where you guys stand. I'll try to post pictures this evening, and if not...I will tomorrow. Have a good day ya'll!

And the plateau sets in...

Well ya'll...I'm pretty aggravated at the moment. I PLATEAU'D! Noooooooooooooo! I've been stuck between the same 3 pounds for 4 days now and I really have no idea what to do. I haven't exercised (which I'm sure is contributing to the problem)...I haven't been watching my fat grams, although I KNOW my calorie intake has been under 1200 a day.

It sucks pretty bad, and I'm discouraged so say the least. So I thought about taking the extremely unhealthy route and going on a water and lemon fast for the next few days, but after thinking about this for awhile, I decided I'm just going to start watching my fat grams, what I eat, and start exercising again today.

I think the problem is that it was Labor Day weekend and I've been off work, so I haven't really had a routine going on.

Saturday was the LSU game and if you know anything about sports in Louisiana, you know college game day in a HUGE DAY in the south! My dad had a big party at his house and they grilled all kinds of good food. Which by the way, I discovered my new favorite little appetizer dish. It was boneless pork stuffed with candied jalapenos and cream cheese, wrapped in bacon. AND. THEY. WERE DELICIOUS. So I ate alot of stuff at my dads on Saturday. Now that I think about it, all that stuff was probably well over 1200 calories.

Sunday, I ate at my grandmaws house...she always cooks a big lunch after church. That consisted of roast, rice and gravy, macaroni and cheese, fried okra, fried chicken, black eyed peas and rolls. So that wasn't very "healthy" either.

And yesterday, I ate a cheeseburger from Dairy Queen.

Ok yeah...now that all that's written down, I see why I hit a plateau.

GEEZ. Starting today though, I'm back on track ya'll. Some encouragement would be great if you have any to give ;)

Hope ya'll had a wonderful Labor Day and I look forward to catching up with all of ya'll!